After a bender, wild crazy night out, there is supposed to be someone to hold your hair back while you let go of all the crazy cocktails consumed much too quickly in the belief it would always be fun and make the night better. Who goes on those magic bar hops all by themselves? No, those are the nights for with your best friends. Granted they might be stories mostly from college and your twenties but they are the stories of your life and become the “tests” of a real friend. How much puke can they hang in there thru? How about you? How much did you make it thru for them?
By your 30′s, you’ve got your significant other and if your are holding hair back for people getting sick, it’s usually for people of the smaller variety. And, with any household with little ones in it, when they get sick – you get sick. At least though, in most cases, there is hopefully someone there to help you out, hold your hair back and bring you tea.
Did you guess I was sick this week? Unfortunately, I was very sick this week, having to go to urgent care and be on bed rest for most of it. As I was realizing how sick I was and that I needed medical help, I was also realizing that I had no one to call to help me. I wasn’t well enough to get to the doctor on my own but I had no partner to help me. Sure, I guess I could try calling my sister but she never answers and is completely unreliable because you never know if she is going to answer or show. So, really not someone I can call.
And, while I tried not to start crying from the frustration of it, the helplessness of being that alone, because well I couldn’t breathe as is let alone if I added sobbing to it, an absolute irritation that I am this far down the road from the divorce, relationships & dating and this is still where I am took over me.
I want someone that when I am sick will hold my hair out of the way. I want someone that when I am sick will drive me to the doctor’s appointment. Well, not because I really want to be sick or think it’s so romantic for someone to watch you lose your lunch. But, because, when you have reached the point in which you do that for each other – the real in sickness and in health – without the vows, when it’s because you really like the person that much – there is a commitment and a bond with another person that says “I will not let you be alone.”
That’s why I want some one to hold my hair.