If this isn’t an emphatic enough statement, I don’t know what would be.
“I don’t care if you doubt who I date, just don’t doubt me.”
As if there hasn’t been enough crossed wires between my best friend and I lately, in one of the rare instances in four years of friendship, I managed to almost piss him off. Still don’t know that it’s possible for him to ever actually get pissed off but he certainly did get annoyed.
I should have known that this would be one of the few things that could get under his skin. Particularly since one of the things I have always admired so much in him is his consistency, his steadfastness, his word means something. Here I was having questioning it. Of course, this was after the pity invite so I was feeling a bit stung. But, before he really became involved with Girl X that I should have been worried.
In a few months, he is going on a major family vacation with me that financially and emotionally I would not have been able to go on without him. I could not afford to pay the room price if it was not split. And, two weeks in close quarters with my entire extended family is a bit much for me to handle given our history. He’s the first person in my life that keeps me calm in the midst of their chaos and the fact that he immediately agreed to go was testament to our friendship.
He has never backed out on anything with me and always kept his word. So, there is no reason to doubt him. But, love and relationships are a powerful thing that can completely change allegiances. It is not unreasonable to worry his determination to go could change.
The irony is that it wasn’t even what I meant about it at all. Like anyone infatuated, newly in love, lust what ever it may be, he falls off the face of the earth on me for a few months each time he gets into a relationship. I was really picking on him more that he was about to disappear on me for a few months. And, this time he couldn’t do it for as long as normal.
Guess I know what topic not to appear to joke about with him now! But I don’t mind really. He wouldn’t have gotten upset about it if my opinion regarding it didn’t matter to him. And I’ll take a friend that cares about it any day. Even if I do occasionally put my foot in my mouth with it at times.
